在過去的三年的時間, 我經歷了一個對信仰全然不同的觀念..
特別是我在跟第二個男友分手後我就跟神說我接下來的男朋友一定是要愛主的基督徒
但後來是跟我從國二就認識的好朋友在一起,
我們認識了10年,
在一起短短的5個月,
我無時無刻想辦法希望他成為基督徒,
成為我心中好形象的新好男人,
基督徒的迷思"信與不信不能同負一軛"一直深深捆綁著我,
認為他不是基督徒就不能成為家中的一份子,
讓他深感重挫,
認為基督教義深深把外邦人排擠在外,
儘管在一起的時間,
他總認為他付出再多,
我和家人永遠不可能接受他,
也永遠感覺不夠,
家裡好幾代基督教那根深地錮的觀念就這樣活生生排擠一個外邦人,
因著媽媽的決定要我們搬回,
也因著我那迂腐自私一成不變的觀念使的我毫不帶憐憫地去批評論斷他的作為.
為此我深感抱歉,
或許因此他對基督教更厭惡,
我更向神求憐憫,
求主赦免我的無知.
神讓我回台灣後看到,
藉著康希牧師的講道讓我重新認識如何成為一位融入世界的基督徒,
Just like Daniel...
現今的社會跟聖經上所寫的歷史背景已大不相同,
絕不能把那時的方式與神現在的作為混為一談,
因 "神的道是活潑的"....
神讓我學到那種包容與接納不是口頭上說說而已,
我發現當我在對別人說要接納,要愛是很容易的一件事
但他是我的另一半時,
面對他的不完美,
我確不能接受,
為什麼有這麼難?
聖經不是說要 "愛人如己"嗎?
那為什麼我給的愛...是有條件的愛,
聖經不也說 " 耶穌說：「假如你們當中有人有一百隻羊，其中的一隻迷失了，怎麼辦呢？他一定把其他的九十九隻留在草場，去找那隻迷失的，直到找著了為止。」（路加15：4）
我跟神說要一個條件好的對象,
但神彷彿對我說...
難道你不相信神改變的大能嗎?
回來台灣,
我體會看到...
基督徒家庭也有 "不同的軛"
夫妻中的爭吵, 離婚, 外遇大有人在,
神並沒有說基督徒就是 exceptions,
神不是說 "我的恩典是夠你們用的?"
那這些基督徒是怎麼樣讓自己走到缺乏神恩典的地步?
身邊的親戚朋友是基督徒又怎麼樣?
對我來說他們比我前男友還差勁,
做人基本道理都不會,
不懂得感謝及回饋,
至少他懂得珍惜在一起的時光,
開心的過每一天.
回來台灣我很珍惜每一天,
神讓我身邊的非基督徒每天都教我功課,
神讓我看到他們雖然沒有信主,
但依然喜樂,
夫妻互尊互敬,
在工作上也有優越的表現,
一起扶持到老的大有人在...
為何我們基督徒的教義要限制神的愛呢?
媽總算看到這點,
在這一路我是很慶幸的,
因我學到的太多太多,
彼此互相跌倒但又互相扶持,
只是那迷失的一隻羊或許就因為我法利賽人的教義從此就這樣迷失了,
又更深的陷在世界了.
如果是你, 會怎麼做?
我想神不會希望我們侷限自己在一個小框框裡吧!
Enjoy what you can, endure what you must ~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things ~ Robert Brault
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Personal Info:
Interests: collecting Starbucks cards (actually anything has to do with Starbucks), watching latest fashion trends, traveling, food tasting, watching movies, doing shoppings (of cuz when it is necessary!), driving nice cars (or just by looking at it), listening music (very imp!), playing piano & composing songs (lack of practice :P), writing stuffs on my blog, playing with my precious doggy (although Puffy's been pretty annoying lately), looking at beautiful things!! ^___^
Favorite Music Genres:
Pop, Jazz, Gospel, Soft Rock, R&B, Hip-Hop
Favorite TV Shows:
King of the Queens, Friends; Prison Break, Project Runway, Travel & Living...etc
Favorite Quotes:
*Easier Than You Think…because life doesn't have to be so hard -- Richard Carlson
*It is a greater compliment to be trusted than to be loved -- George MacDonald
*In poverty and other misfortunes of life, true friends are a sure refuge. The young they keep out of mischief; to the old they are a comfort and aid in their weakness, and those in the prime of life they incite to noble deeds -- Aristotle
*Keep a fair-sized cemetery in your back yard, in which to bury the faults of your friends -- Henry Ward Beecher
*The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend -- Henry David Thoreau
*A joy shared is a joy doubled -- Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe
Questions to Ask:
-Do my closest friends enjoy just being with me?
-Am I a friend that others depend on during difficult times?
Love isn't love unless it is expressed; caring isn't caring unless the other person knows;sharing isn't sharing unless the other person is included; Loving, caring, and sharing can make for a very happy marriage -- by Anonymous
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